THREE POEMS by JUDSON HAMILTON

Small Talk

 

I’m not tryin’ to call you out
But sportin’ a Hi-Vis jacket to
A garden party is just bad form

I know you – you wouldn’t have worn it without a reason though
“Visibility is one of the emerging trends in the gig economy”

But you make a strong case for the party being dull
That’s the way though, isn’t it?
You work up the courage to go out
Find yourself a snug corner
Where you can keep your own counsel and
Nurse a beer in peace, amirite?

Yeah there is just not enough light here
…just not enough light. Continue reading

“THE ACT OF TRANSLATION” by PAUL FEY

The birth of their daughter was the turning point in learning his wife’s mother tongue. Allan often joked that it was because he didn’t want them to speak behind his back in front of him. He worried once, with Learning Portuguese for Dummies splayed across his chest, the joke betrayed his motivation was not for his wife or his daughter.

It’s a distant memory by the time they move to Brazil to be close to her parents after her mother’s remission ended.

Giovanna is a nurse at a local hospital in Maringá. In this city of trees and rotaries, he’s a stay-at-home dad, a foreign concept to Brazilian culture. He gets a kick out of walking through Parque do Inga, this the dense jungle with paths and a small Japanese area like a hidden trinket. The first time he saw the capivara roaming the grounds, he jumped back and shouted “what the fuck is that?” Now he tries to pet it. He marvels at the Catedral, this massive cone off the side of one street, where kids congregate on Saturdays and kick around the bola de futebol.

Alan tells people, in America, they pull down panels with computerized designs overnight or even have those digital signs that change in front of your eyes. He loves to watch the painters come out and retouch the hand-done walls in front of the houses here, so much so his daughter has to tug on his hand sometimes. He pitches in to the family income by writing translations, Portuguese to English.

Still, there are still expressions of language that elude him. Saudades is the famous example. No matter the descriptions and allusions he’s given, they say he doesn’t really get it and he trusts them. It’s a Brazilian thing. Continue reading

“THE DRUNKS” by ALICE FLORIDA XU

____We were nine and ten when Billy Jacobs told us about the man behind his house.
____He has red hair and wears a baggy shirt that says Nautica, our friend said. Then Billy, always the best artist in the group, drew the man with fine-tipped markers from the perspective of his bedroom window: a skinny grinning creep, lava-headed and standing at the edge of the forest, the word NAUTICA exceeding the square of his chest. The man would stare for a while, then cross back into the green like Bigfoot. He came lots of times and he lives in the woods. Oh and sometimes he waved to me, Billy said, raising his hand to show us.
____Two of us betting Billy was lying, a small group organized on a Saturday to find this red-haired man. It was early autumn and the green of summer (a wonderful summer) had angered to a red that snowed all around us: living leaves, still fleshy, mute beneath our Chuck Taylors. I brought along my kid brother Jared, in those days, a weak and anxious child preoccupied with eyebally anime. My father worried, seeing the sulky teen in embryo, a loser man to be. Challenge him, my dad said, standing darkly in my bedroom doorway. He’ll thank you one day.
____We walked past the stream and down the enormous hill (I see some of us chucking rocks hail Mary at a family of deer) and emerged in the light of a big shaggy field. A man lay there with frizzy red hair, parted in the center, trash and bottles in a circle around him like witchcraft. His face was scorched and lumpy with plump whiteheads that resembled useless, half-formed eyes. Nautica Competition, his shirt said. He grinned like in the picture. Continue reading

“sktbksgkgbv” by MEDICAL DRAGON

uncertain of my position in the universe I look up the wikipedia page titled “felix and alicia’s relationship”. I scroll past ‘summary’, past ‘major characters’, past ‘controversy’, to ‘reasons for breakup’, under which is the single line of text felix is an asshole. it’s hyperlinked in blue and I click it and the page that loads is felix’s shortcomings as a human being (incomplete list). I see ‘lack of empathy’, I see ‘lack of initiative’, I see ‘overclocked sex drive’ (no lack). you can help complete this list. I tap backspace, scroll to ‘reasons for break-up’, click ‘last known edit’, see alicia_p_, 01/01/2013, 00:46:32 UTC. I google ‘new years 2013 aliciw’, rub my eye. rub my eyes. did you mean alicia? scroll past several articles on news events that don’t involve me or alicia or me and alicia’s relationship. alicia died from alcohol poisoning at a party in buffalo; alicia gets her mecha piloting license in season 7, ep 13; in a mongolian border town alicia is a pig statue commemorating the [translate this page?] young worker’s leek cultivation society. page 4 of 4,590,000 results I see nick’s stupid fucking blog, personal orgy: nick’s stupid fucking blog, bruised purple. click and two paragraphs, 0 comments. I see wild night brojos. I see in flashing colors ‘leprous octopi want to date you’, I see ‘23 photos that are inherently self-aware’, I see yellow font on orange background, I rub my eyes at nick’s stupid fucking blog, I see rooftop pool party and glow paint made it impossible! to hide and gpt me thinking about resolutions and someho wgotlost then calleeeedddd for heeeeelp and I unlock my phone and tap and tap and scroll and scroll and scroll and scroll and see ‘call from nick m 4:07am 01/01/2013’. nick’s blog says “aliciw got me kicked me out”. Continue reading

FOUR POEMS by CARL GERCAR

Good Old Jeff

 

They beat Jeff Dahmer to death.
Probably in the dark corner of some dark cell in some prison shithole.
Good old Jeff, one of the boys, swell kind of guy,
drank beers and watched sports and looked girls up and down as they walked by.
Good old Jeff, just a pal,
loved to go out for a cold one,
then fucking kill you
and eat you
and fuck your corpse
and keep it preserved, frozen,
stare at it
late at night
watching the light play with your
lidless eyes.
They beat Jeff Dahmer to death. Continue reading

“OYSTER SHELLS” by SAMUEL STEVENS

He took these hunting trips three times a year. He hunted one kind of game but he never had the stomach to take it.

The hunter hiked through the bush—no, it was not bush, he corrected himself. The autumn leaves on the forest floor made him think of corpses, for some reason. The sun shone over the ridge-line ahead. He had been here as a boy.

The hunter never carried many rounds. He kept ten in the cartridge loops on his belt for appearances. He breathed out and went downhill. There was a wide stream that trout lived in at the foot. He came here in the summer to fish. He crouched at the stream and the cool air was refreshing despite the autumn winds.

He was going to be back at his job on Monday, maybe, back to listening to the bitch make demands of him over nothing and expect him to act as her confessor. Coming home to an empty house was normal to him.

He looked up from the water and a deer stared at him, a doe. He stood up slowly. The doe ran up the ridge on the other side of the wide stream. The hunter sloshed across. His boots filled with water. That was alright.

He listened and stalked. He was not after this doe; it was the wrong kind of game. He went after it anyway, tracking the disturbances in the dead leaves. Continue reading

THREE WORKS by JOSEPH FREDERICK GARCIA

LINES

 

It is my new goal to fall in love with someone while waiting in line.

I’m done with dating and hook-ups and I just want to become intimate with someone waiting in line with me.

My ideal partner is someone who is ahead of me in line, but, honestly, I would gladly take someone who is behind me in line—especially as I am nearing 30 with little to no career aspirations.

With this in mind, I scan the people, ahead and behind.

I happen to notice someone scanning as well.

We meet eyes.

In some sort of unspoken agreement, we decide to give it a try.

We don’t have to connect on any one issue.

We don’t have to have anything in common. Continue reading

“CALLE DEL SNACK” by ASHTON POLITANOFF

He parked his car just outside the hillside community and then entered on foot. The neighborhood had big family homes with trimmed lawns, long driveways, and streets with Spanish names. Here and there a few windows were lit, but for the most part, everything was dark, asleep. He tried to appear casual, like he was on an insomniac’s stroll. Over his shoulder, if it were day, he would be able to see a peel of ocean. Instead, he felt only the breeze.

The fourth doormat he lifted, he found a key. The house was ranch style with a stone path leading to the front. He tried the key and the Dutch door released. He pushed it open a few inches and waited for the alarm. Then he went inside.

In the open foyer, he took off his shoes. He took off his socks. He rooted his bare feet for a moment on the oak floors and let his eyes adjust to the dark. Ahead was a living room with a vaulted ceiling. Through the big picture windows, he saw the outlines of trees and hills.

He stepped onto the limestone of the kitchen. He placed his hand on the cool marble island. He looked around. He kept the lights off. Everything was orderly in the white cabinet kitchen. The drying rack was empty. The countertop was bare except for the usual appliances. The plant on the windowsill near the sink was well maintained. Outside, just beyond, the pool lay still. Continue reading

“LAW AND ORDER” by MILES PRESTON-CLARK

Lately the most important thing in my life is television. Specifically, those complicated procedural courtroom dramas that air in six-hour blocks I can get lost in. The onslaught of technical law jargon strewn throughout each episode is only able to register in my brain for a second but it’s long enough to distract me from the stress dream that is my entire life. In fact, my life has become so unbearable,that I’ve begun this ritual of planting myself in the chaise in front of the TV in the study for days at a time, moving occasionally to eat or urinate but never to greet my son or daughter or husband when they arrive home, never to ask how their days have been. I just do what I think is necessary. I eat, I shit, I piss and I watch criminal after criminal get exactly what they deserve.

This process has become so frequent, that now my family seems unfazed by my random bouts of binge watching. They leave me to my television and my sulk, bringing me food sometimes but never bothering to see if I finish or caring if I even try. The dramatic effect, my son says one day before dropping him off at school, has worn off. Continue reading